beepydeeps is stolen and modified from curio's awesome BPD in the media Youtube video ~
In May 2019, I called the suicide hotline and was referred to a voluntary crisis unit in my town. There, I had the chance to talk to social workers, nurses, peer supports, and a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist diagnosed me with Borderline Personality Disorder, or BPD, and started me on a new medication (Abilify).
It wasn't the first time I'd been suicidal, and it wasn't the first time that I'd had instability in my relationships with others. Far from it. In fact, i had begun to suspect as early as 2016 that I might have a personality disorder due to the chronic nature of my issues. None of the diagnoses I'd received before- Major Depression, possibly Bipolar, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (with psychotic features)- felt adequate to describe the feelings that I had and the way that my mental illness had affected my life. So, receiving an official diagnosis of BPD was something of a relief.
"BPD is a pervasive pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and emotion, as well as marked impulsivity beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following: